“I eat my feelings.”
Filed Under: Emotional Eating
19 May 2023 | Written by Xenia Ayiotis
“I eat my feelings.”
I hear this so often. I used to struggle with this myself. My clients carry such shame and guilt about eating emotionally, as if they are inadequate in some way. Emotional eating is a way to distract ourselves from unpleasant feelings. It is also a way to numb more difficult emotions. It’s a normal human response, yet diet culture leads us to believe that when we eat emotionally, it’s because we lack willpower and control. That emotional eating is a sign of weakness.
Let’s look at the role of food in our lives. Food is emotional. We celebrate with food, we connect with food, we mourn with food. We need food for our survival. Food is a source of pleasure for our senses and fuel for our bodies. From the day we are born, food becomes a source of comfort. What do we give a crying baby? For the most part, milk – yet it’s possible the baby needs a nappy change or a hug.
When I eventually stopped dieting and started healing my relationship with food, I had no idea whether what I was feeling was physical hunger or anxiety. I was completely disconnected from my body and my emotions. I just remember feeling bad most of the time. It took time and awareness to name the emotion and identify hunger.
As I started identifying emotions, I realised that most of the time I was eating because of anxiety or frustration.
What is the one skill that helped me?
Awareness.
There is great healing power in awareness. Like me, many of my clients are physically and emotionally unaware. It’s not obvious to us that we are turning to food to cope, we just judge ourselves as weak and lacking willpower. For many of us, we don’t know why we are eating and there are uncomfortable feelings that have not yet been uncovered, we don’t recognise what is going on for us. We think we are deliberately sabotaging ourselves.
Understanding what we are feeling and listening to our emotions can heal our relationship with food but first we need to get in touch with our feelings. Recognising an emotion and understanding why we overeat requires awareness and takes practice. I have a very simple tool you can use to help you connect with what you might be feeling.
The tool I used to get in touch with my emotions was this question:
Am I feeling mad, sad, bad or glad?
My answer was mostly bad.
As I dug deeper with bad, I uncovered anxiety and fear of judgement, to name a few. I realised that pleasant emotions also led to me to overeat – excitement and anticipation.
Eventually I was able to expand my emotional vocabulary and label the emotions. So how does labelling emotions help to overcome emotional eating? We are telling ourselves the truth. We own our behaviour instead of eating behind our backs and beating ourselves up.
Awareness is the first step. It could be that you become aware of anxiety or that you are worrying or stressed. When you notice something is happening you could say to yourself in a gentle tone, “anxiety is here” or “I am stress eating.”
The nature of life is that we will all experience unpleasant feelings. Avoiding these feelings will give us some temporary relief but it won’t solve the problem. If you struggle with emotional eating, can you remove the judgement about it and start getting curious about how you are feeling? Check in with yourself and see what it is you are needing? To offer yourself some tender words like you would to your best friend. Something like “what do you need sweetheart?” or “this is hard but we’ll take it one step at a time.”
May we find the courage to be with our emotions.
Love,
Xen
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